Saturday 6 November 2010

They say don't live in the past...

They say one should never live in the past...

But I for one cannot help thinking back...I am always thinking, what did I do last year this time, or last week or sometimes even yesterday...

I love my memories...I am glad and happy to feel what I felt that day even now when I think back...I know it sounds very saddening but ...believe me I am not sad...but happy.. It doesn't matter whether the memories are sad or happy , to feel it all over again, to have those emotions rush in when you think of it ...is that not amazing especially when they say feelings will fade as time passes...for me it doesn't ...if anything, the feelings become stronger...

Two years ago, on this date, I was on my flight to UK...I was happy, nervous, sad and anxious all at the same time. I had just taken a life-changing decision by deciding to leave comfortable grounds to further my studies in a foreign land...I had no idea what to expect, I am glad of my brave decision...I know what it feels like now...I miss home although I feel very lucky to be part of a very prestigious institution. Today, when I think of the day I took the flight, all the feelings that I felt that day rush back, I think even stronger than what I felt then...why...because I think I was too dazed that day to feel much...but now I am clear...I can place myself into that position ...

Ok...now I stop blabbering...I don't even know if I have achieved what I wanted to say...did any of you understand? I think all I am trying to say you don't have to live in your past but you have all the right to feel your emotions from your past in your own personal space and time...that is your right....be glad that we have memories...may not be strong for many people...but we still have them...memories kindle hope for our future...agree??

2 comments:

  1. Excellent post. I totally agree with you that memories kindle hope for our future. But, I personally would feel the "happy" memories to feel it all over again. Not the sad ones. For example, if you don't like a movie why watch it again and again? My two cents.

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  2. Memories. <3 strike me strongest during winter.

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